++De|ic!ous HoR fUn++

沒差?

2012-02-15T17:15:00.002+08:00

早上在搭地鐵時在想人是不是隨著年齡的增長會變得不愛計較

還是... just feeling jaded.

型男醉後日記

2012-01-02T11:17:00.002+08:00

史上最難忘的電影 !!

有人說..

2011-12-24T01:00:00.001+08:00

當感傷追上你的時候，你會發現，寂寞是如此的平凡.

Once upon a time

2011-12-24T00:58:00.000+08:00

you ever walked into a situation where you know exactly what's going to happen

and then you go into it anyway

and then when what you were afraid of happens

you kicked yourself because, you should have known better

but that's just who you were

so you keep punishing yourself

以後為自己醉

2011-12-11T01:18:00.007+08:00

好奇怪今天又是一個多愁善感的一天

可不可以少一點想法多一些簡單

突然覺得套一句那些年的對白

人生本來就有很多事是徒勞無功嘛

在台灣三個月了發現到自己不是一個容易放輕鬆的人

其實做人很多時候真的不需要這麼計較真的不用這麼拘謹

看開一些有這麼簡單嗎

不想擁有太多情緒只想好好睡一覺有這麼難嗎

alcohol

2011-11-17T12:58:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I really do wonder, is all this drinking worth it?

真的.. 沒那麼簡單

2011-11-11T00:53:00.004+08:00

這首個到底唱出多少人的心聲啊!

变得实际也许好也许坏各一半

不爱孤单一久也习惯

不用担心谁也不用被谁管

感觉快乐就忙东忙西

感觉累了就放空自己

别人说的话随便听一听自己作决定

不想拥有太多情绪一杯红酒配电影

在周末晚上关上了手机

舒服窝在沙发里

2011-11-04T01:06:00.000+08:00

台灣真的是一個容易讓人 emo 的地方.

2011-10-31T21:18:00.012+08:00

我竟然在客運上看著夕陽落淚了. 太丟臉了!

Anyway, traveling alone may be lonely at times, may be 狼狽 at times (people see me as a little boy, you see. I am forever a 小弟), but the kind of freedom is priceless. Till I find someone who is as random as me that will travel all the way to 新竹 with just a handphone, wallet and water bottle for shopping, traveling alone is the best option.

2011-10-18T00:24:00.002+08:00

It was Becky's timely arrival that reminded me of my aim of coming to Taiwan.

Problems that range from course selection to the serious accusation for my unintentional mysterious disappearance, has distracted me from all the fun and enjoyment an exchange should bring about.

I came here for an escape, to do away with all the 有的沒的 in Singapore. Not to come here and be worried more than ever. I am done with licking my wounds.

And thanks to my bff, I have found inspiration to travel around and explore Taiwan, be it in group or alone.

Anyway, to my dearest bff: In 2009, I dedicated 別再為他流淚 to you. Now, this song is for you.

I remember you said that one has to find bottom before he can finally bottom-up. I know that this trip to Taiwan may have unexpectedly brought about some sad thoughts, and you may not have found bottom here, but I wanna say, there's nothing wrong with being sad. Be upset and cry for as long as you want. Because trying to make yourself feel better wouldn't make you feel any better. And as you have said, don't worry, you will be fine. Eventually.

我的天啊！出嫁了！

2011-10-01T13:51:00.002+08:00

What?

2011-07-31T19:32:00.002+08:00

Now, I can't even see you from afar.

2011-07-29T20:23:00.008+08:00

I don't know. I have never believe in God or pre-destined so much in my life until today.

There were so many signs telling me to give up, but as stubborn as I am, I went all out.

And needless to say, it was a disaster.

I kinda not regret what I have done, or said, but well, at the very least I have tried.

Now, I finally understood your messages.

And thank You for giving me the job to keep me occupied.

You have always been so kind to me.

2011-07-28T21:20:00.005+08:00

I don't know is it because internship is drawing to an end, I'm feeling really horrible now.

It was only until this evening that I realised how exhausted I am.

Suddenly there's so many things to do, so many things to prepare, so many things to decide on...

And so many alternatives.

God, can you make yourself clearer?!

2011-07-26T09:16:00.002+08:00

It's so true, life is full of decisions.

Sometimes i wonder, would it be better to regret making a decision, or regret not making that decision.

Anyway, this time i know what i want, instead of what i do not want.

梁靜茹【比較愛】

2011-07-24T17:51:00.003+08:00

I don't quite understand this MV, but can't help feeling sad.

2011-07-11T20:54:00.005+08:00

Amazing. 7 weeks of internship has whizzed past, just like that.

And I finally have some time on my own to write some stuff.

I kind of like working, despite the meager pay. It makes me discover parts of myself that I never knew. Well, I'm so stuck in school for the past 20 years or so afterall.

There's this one person I meet on the bus almost every other day whom I am kind of attracted to. Well, at the very least, wanting to bump into that person is the only thing that keeps me sane for waking up at 6.30am everyday.

I know it's kind of stupid to do such an impossible thing, but seriously, it motivated me to be on time for my 8.30am class since a year ago. And viola! It works for my internship too and I'm always one of the earliest to reach office.

Anyway, besides discovering the eye candy on the bus, I understood why do I like to work so much.

How should I put it..

Being busy keeps me occupied. Not giving me the time to feel that my life is actually pretty empty, and that it may fall apart any time. It makes me feel accomplished. And that even I may regret this in future, so be it.

Life is full of regrets, no harm adding one more.

all time favourite

2011-05-22T02:29:00.001+08:00

没那么简单就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在看过了那么多的背叛
总是不安只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫

没那么简单就能去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管

感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听自己作决定

不想拥有太多情绪一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上关上了手机
舒服窝在沙发里

相爱没有那么容易
每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪
轰轰烈烈不如平静

幸福没有那么容易
才会特别让人着迷
什么都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心所以最开心曾经

想念最伤心但却最动心的记忆

2011-03-09T21:29:00.007+08:00

Was reading some of my old post and wonder when did I become so emo and dramatic.

*roll eyes*

Anyway, each time I watch Gigi's concert, be it on youtube or dvd, I would tell myself, one day I would be there at Hong Kong attending her concert.

But everytime she plans one, somehow my enthusiasm just died off.

And everytime I watch what I have missed, I wonder, HOW COULD I EVER MISS IT?!

2011-03-08T21:39:00.006+08:00

Life has been interesting.

Or rather, full of ups and downs.

For me, this few week especially.

Not only did I not even get an interview opportunity by PwC, I lost my chance of going to Hong Kong for an exchange.

Wait a minute, I did not lose it. I didn't get it in the first place.

Applications after applications, I thought that, yes, this is the chance God created for me to go to Hong Kong for an exchange. There must be a reason why someone drop it. It must be for me to pick it.

And time after time, I gained hope only to lose them.

Well, whatever. I mean, all the doors are shut for me now.

And at this point of time, I just have to not do well for my mid term.

And only at this point of time, life suddenly has a turnaround for me.

I WON AN IPAD!

Here's the proof:

I was shopping with my mum at NTUC some time in December last year and she wanted to get some Glad Wrap. So i suggested to her, why not get 2 rolls since there's a contest.

And here I go..

I WON AN IPAD.

Though it is the lousiest version, it kind of come in time as I wanted to buy a laptop.

So now, should I sell it and buy a laptop or use it as a laptop?

And the other good news is that, the stock that I bought almost 2 years ago, which I have been sitting on paper loss since eons ago, finally had a takeover bid!

Well, not that you would understand.. but yay.

No one say life is perfect.

But who says life has to be gloom and doom.

May be you are the reason why all the doors are closed, so you could open one that leads you to the perfect road.

2011-02-23T00:21:00.008+08:00

I can't sleep. I JUST CAN'T get to sleep.

It's this feeling again. Just like woman's menses, it comes regularly.

I don't know is it the stock market, my internship, or the fact that pwc didn't even consider me for the job, or.. i don't know, my lack of clothes in my wardrobe?

But I know, I need sleeping pills if this continues.

2011-02-07T23:17:00.002+08:00

Be not afraid of failing. Be afraid of not trying.

And I promise that I will work damn hard from tomorrow onwards and not be distracted!

2011-02-04T21:29:00.002+08:00

I just came back from my routine run and I feel that it is high time that I should blog.

I woke up early in the morning on the first day of the lunar new year and decided I should go 拜年 this year.

No, not because of the hong baos.
(Alright, may be partially.)

But I feel that I should be more gracious, more 大方, more accepting.
And this is my resolution for the year 2011 (Lunar calendar, of course.), is to be more gracious.

Afterall so many things happened in the family these few years.
So much so that if it is filmed into a show, it will definately be as big a hit as 愛.
(Alright, may be not.)

Anyway, I came to realise that I really fear this question on why I am still single.

I don't know how many feel exactly the same way as I am, but this is a question where i really do not know how to answer.

I mean, I really do not know how to put across to them that I do not wish to get married, nor wish to find a partner.

I have decided to be single. Isn't this very common nowadays?

So I would usually brush them off by saying I would look for one when I graduate.

But what is more scary is that the small little careless jokes/hints that I dropped to my mom on various occasions, apparently did not work out the way I expected.

We were having some casual gossip and somehow my mum concluded that 我們做人不可以這麼不負責人, 不可以不要有家庭, 不要有孩子.

I have no idea that setting up a family suddenly become a social responsibility?

And I really do not know how to emphasize that, mom, you are not getting any grandchild from me, nor any daughter-in-law. You'd better pray that ah jie and her husband/boyfriend want children. That's more hopeful.

Can someone help me with that?

2010-11-27T13:13:00.002+08:00

Know what I hate most?

The feeling that when I did everything, it was as if I did nothing.

2010-11-27T00:33:00.002+08:00

I feel so strange tonight.

Don't know is it the glass of ice tea, or the cup of mocha frap that is now causing me to feel so hyperactive.

Met up with some army friends for the very first time since we ord-ed, although some didn't turned up.

Kinda miss them seriously.

I mean, how many nice people can you meet in your whole damn life.
And how many actually passed you by, just like that.

Hmm.. meeting up with them make me feel so... how should i put it.... down to earth?

See, we talked about stuff that (i feel that) 'matured' talking about.
Actually, we were just just talking crap.

But what i mean is that, we reminisced about the life in camp, the kind of nonsense we have to put up with, sharing the part of each others' lives that we missed out on. Totally no frills.

We don't talk about schools, CCAs *roll eyes*, results, work or anything too serious. Maybe besides the part where they keep pressing me to look for a girlfriend.

I mean, of course, we do talk about these, but more of the kind of people we meet, the kind of interactions we face.

These just make me feel so.. adult, so life-should-be-like-this.

Come to think of it, I actually miss ah phua very much.
And i wonder when would I get to see him. Maybe never ever.

Wah, I have never felt so indifferent/complacent/lost before any examinations.
Just feel so dreadful of this seemingly endless tertiary education.

Alright, I'm starting to type incoherently and this is just the sign to sleep.

Ciao.

2010-10-24T00:45:00.002+08:00

I was thinking about the movie Eat Pray Love few nights back because I couldn't get to sleep.

It was recommended by Shengli because (he thought) I looked disillionised (whatever that means) and that I should find back that so-called work-life balance, which I kind of lost it since like forever.

Alright, I admit, I wasn't quite myself for the past few weeks, because I made a huge promise/decision for myself, which I can't seem to keep it.

But after watching the movie, I still can't seem to understand work-life-balance-insipiration he wanted me to have.

The movie is all about a woman, who is facing with some mid-life crisis, NOT because she is too busy with work, but rather, she's too scared to step out of her comfort zone, until one day she realised that she is actually not happy at all in it.

Speaking of work-life balance, I am a non-believer of it.

Because I believe that work is such a negative word, and that if we are working, it means we are doing something we do not like at all. And that when we are doing something we do not like, how could there ever be a balance.

To put it in simple terms, like what Siew Lin told me today, how on earth could there be work-life balance, when we are working for 5 days a week, or maybe 5 and a half, or 6 to some, when there is only 7 days a week.

This is pure mathematics.

Anyway, back to the movie.

As chim as the movie may be (because it had too many moral-of-the-story), I took away one valuable message that I have never thought about in my whole life, besides the point that alcohol makes a good therapist.

We do not need to have a reason to be nice to ourselves.

Since young, I rewarded myself with a good meal after my exams. I bought myself a bag because it was my birthday. I gave myself a holiday after slogging for 2 months at work. But I have never pampered myself for nothing, or rather, for me being myself.

I feel that this is such a Chinese mindset, or maybe it's like what Vick would like to put it, an Asian thinking.

That everything should be earned.
And we have to be taught on how to enjoy life.

I mean, yes, there are things we have to work hard for, but not for everything.

This shouldn't be a reason why we should not work hard for anything. It just meant that, at the end of the day, regardless of the outcome, we should not be too hard on ourselves.

Alright, it's 1.43am now, and I start to feel that I am not quite making much sense. And I have 5 more pages of Korean to practice.

Ciao.

2010-10-17T22:48:00.002+08:00

Bill Gates speech: 11 rules your kids did not and will not learn in school

Rule 1: Life is not fair - get used to it!

Rule 2: The world doesn't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Rule 3: You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both.

Rule 4: If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss.

Rule 5: Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: they called it opportunity.

Rule 6: If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

Rule 7: Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.

Rule 8: Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life HAS NOT. In some schools, they have abolished failing grades and they'll give you as MANY TIMES as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

Rule 9: Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF. Do that on your own time.

Rule 10: Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

Rule 11: Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.

My favourite gotta be rule 9 haha!

2010-10-11T18:23:00.002+08:00

Just some random thoughts.

Siew Lin, Gladys and I were talking about feeling sucidal, ESPECIALLY before exams.

Like when crossing the road, or before that, you would imagine yourself being knocked over by a oncoming vehicle. Then, everything else actually doesn't really matter.

Come to think of it, it is actually quite stupid to tell those people who are sucidal, that ending their life doesn't solve the problem. Because in the first place, they do not want to solve the problem.

2010-10-09T00:27:00.004+08:00

I do not know when did I start to feel so tired and negative about almost everything and I doubt I can ever put a date to it.

I guess this is all part of growing up, you begin to feel jaded, feel uninterested, feel misunderstood, feel alone.

23 years of life have just passed, just like that.

And I realised I need to find myself.

But maybe it's like what Lily said to her daughter Serena in Gossip Girl, Do you think anyone really knows who they are? No, we don't. We just live.

2010-09-16T22:16:00.003+08:00

刚刚在电视上听到，以前婚姻是讲天长地久，现在婚姻是讲能守多久.

I was having my usual run in the park, and I bumped into my PE teacher from my primary school. Or his look-alike.

But that's not my point.

He was with his wife and 2 children, taking a blissful stroll at the park.

And I thought to myself, what kind of life am I looking for?

Do I want children? Or that I will have them murdered before they can reach the age for a stroll in the park.

2010-06-03T22:22:00.002+08:00

If there's anything i like about korean dramas, is that they do not stinge on their costume.

2010-05-26T23:21:00.001+08:00

Due to the excitement of the impending results, i couldn't sleep last night at all.

Ironically, when the results is merely 37 minutes away, i just wanna doze off.

Ciao, i'm going to sleep now.

2010-05-10T01:46:00.003+08:00

I couldn't sleep.

It has been such a long time since I got so tensed up over an issue. No, not even exams.

As much as i love to play the good guy and not openly disagree with anyone, i can't help but to keep rolling my eyes when watching talking point on CNA.

I am not pro the reduce-the-mother-tongue-weightage policy (not that i know the details of it), neither am I anti it.

What i feel is that the reason behind the bilingual policy is not totally right in the first place.

No matter how much people believe in the politically correct answer that bilingualism will help pass on the culture, making singapore a multiracial country living in harmony etc.... I believe that ultimately, it is for us to remain competitive. For Singapore to compete on the global stage.

But, why has sustaining a culture/language become something so academic and a tool for business?

If not so, why do you even care about the weightage in the first place.

The guest on talking point made a point something like this: Not knowing Mandarin well does not make you less Chinese.

That's a pathetic thought. That's just a lame excuse for him not mastering Mandarin well. Shame on him.

But i would like to make my point: Knowing Mandarin well does not make you more Chinese.

Yes, shame on me. My lame excuse for not mastering Mandarin well.

But seriously, what i feel is that, before we talk about the weightage and what-nots, we should ponder over the what we would like our next generation to learn - the language or the values and beliefs behind it, and is the amount of emphasis we place on these academic language that important.

Because it would be useless if you can speak 一口流利的华语, but do not hold values like family bond, like filial piety, like conscience or shame... Though, this shouldn't undermine the importance of our mother tongue language too.

Instead of wasting effort deabting over the effectiveness of it,before it is even implemented, why not spend the time thinking of how to make the next generation be less answer-driven, making students realise that the drive to learn is more important.

Yes, indeed, we have been producing students that are scoring more As every year, but does that make us smarter?

It is an obvious no, if we continue to rely on external stimuli like toys, stories, games and rewards, which are supposed to complement the learning process, not taking over it.

What, giving out $100 credits for any one who scored an A for their mother tongue the next time?

And with parents throwing irresponsible remarks like the reduction in mother tongue weightage policy will not help reduce the stress of children in coping with their mother tongue and we should make mother tongue less tough instead, is not going to help.

Seeing the policy from another view, it may be advocating students to place less emphasis on the results and more on the process. (Well, i may be dreaming..)

It may be just a very tiny step, but a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. And this journey is definately more than a thousand miles.

I have to share with you this...

2010-05-09T23:26:00.003+08:00

I was surfing yanzi's forum out of boredom, and i didn't manage to dig out any gossip but this...

It's a speech by Mr Adrian Tan, the guest-of-honour of NTU convocation ceremony for the graduating class of 2008.

The title: Don't Work. Avoid Telling the Truth. Be Hated. Love Someone.

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I must say thank you to the faculty and staff of the Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information for inviting me to give your convocation address. It’s a wonderful honour and a privilege for me to speak here for ten minutes without fear of contradiction, defamation or retaliation. I say this as a Singaporean and more so as a husband.

My wife is a wonderful person and perfect in every way except one. She is the editor of a magazine. She corrects people for a living. She has honed her expert skills over a quarter of a century, mostly by practising at home during conversations between her and me.

On the other hand, I am a litigator. Essentially, I spend my day telling people how wrong they are. I make my living being disagreeable.

Nevertheless, there is perfect harmony in our matrimonial home. That is because when an editor and a litigator have an argument, the one who triumphs is always the wife.And so I want to start by giving one piece of advice to the men: when you’ve already won her heart, you don’t need to win every argument.

Marriage is considered one milestone of life. Some of you may already be married. Some of you may never be married. Some of you will be married. Some of you will enjoy the experience so much, you will be married many, many times. Good for you.

The next big milestone in your life is today: your graduation. The end of education. You’re done learning.

You’ve probably been told the big lie that “Learning is a lifelong process” and that therefore you will continue studying and taking masters’ degrees and doctorates and professorships and so on. You know the sort of people who tell you that? Teachers. Don’t you think there is some measure of conflict of interest? They are in the business of learning, after all. Where would they be without you? They need you to be repeat customers.

The good news is that they’re wrong.

The bad news is that you don’t need further education because your entire life is over. It is gone. That may come as a shock to some of you. You’re in your teens or early twenties. People may tell you that you will live to be 70, 80, 90 years old. That is your life expectancy.I love that term: life expectancy.

We all understand the term to mean the average life span of a group of people. But I’m here to talk about a bigger idea, which is what you expect from your life.

You may be very happy to know that Singapore is currently ranked as the country with the third highest life expectancy. We are behind Andorra and Japan, and tied with San Marino. It seems quite clear why people in those countries, and ours, live so long. We share one thing in common: our football teams are all hopeless. There’s very little danger of any of our citizens having their pulses raised by watching us play in the World Cup. Spectators are more likely to be lulled into a gentle and restful nap.

Singaporeans have a life expectancy of 81.8 years. Singapore men live to an average of 79.21 years, while Singapore women live more than five years longer, probably to take into account the additional time they need to spend in the bathroom.

So here you are, in your twenties, thinking that you’ll have another 40 years to go. Four decades in which to live long and prosper.

Bad news. Read the papers. There are people dropping dead when they’re 50, 40, 30 years old. Or quite possibly just after finishing their convocation. They would be very disappointed that they didn’t meet their life expectancy.

I’m here to tell you this. Forget about your life expectancy.

After all, it’s calculated based on an average. And you never, ever want to expect being average.

Revisit those expectations. You might be looking forward to working, falling in love, marrying, raising a family. You are told that, as graduates, you should expect to find a job paying so much, where your hours are so much, where your responsibilities are so much.

That is what is expected of you. And if you live up to it, it will be an awful waste.

If you expect that, you will be limiting yourself. You will be living your life according to boundaries set by average people. I have nothing against average people. But no one should aspire to be them. And you don’t need years of education by the best minds in Singapore to prepare you to be average.

What you should prepare for is mess. Life’s a mess. You are not entitled to expect anything from it. Life is not fair. Everything does not balance out in the end. Life happens, and you have no control over it. Good and bad things happen to you day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. Your degree is a poor armour against fate.

Don’t expect anything. Erase all life expectancies. Just live. Your life is over as of today. At this point in time, you have grown as tall as you will ever be, you are physically the fittest you will ever be in your entire life and you are probably looking the best that you will ever look. This is as good as it gets. It is all downhill from here. Or up. No one knows.

What does this mean for you? It is good that your life is over.

Since your life is over, you are free. Let me tell you the many wonderful things that you can do when you are free.

The most important is this: do not work.

Work is anything that you are compelled to do. By its very nature, it is undesirable.

Work kills. The Japanese have a term “Karoshi”, which means death from overwork. That’s the most dramatic form of how work can kill. But it can also kill you in more subtle ways. If you work, then day by day, bit by bit, your soul is chipped away, disintegrating until there’s nothing left. A rock has been ground into sand and dust.

There’s a common misconception that work is necessary. You will meet people working at miserable jobs. They tell you they are “making a living”. No, they’re not. They’re dying, frittering away their fast-extinguishing lives doing things which are, at best, meaningless and, at worst, harmful.

People will tell you that work ennobles you, that work lends you a certain dignity. Work makes you free. The slogan “Arbeit macht frei” was placed at the entrances to a number of Nazi concentration camps. Utter nonsense.

Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so that you can spend the small remainder sliver of your life in modest comfort. You may never reach that end anyway.

Resist the temptation to get a job. Instead, play. Find something you enjoy doing. Do it. Over and over again. You will become good at it for two reasons: you like it, and you do it often. Soon, that will have value in itself.

I like arguing, and I love language. So, I became a litigator. I enjoy it and I would do it for free. If I didn’t do that, I would’ve been in some other type of work that still involved writing fiction – probably a sports journalist.

So what should you do? You will find your own niche. I don’t imagine you will need to look very hard. By this time in your life, you will have a very good idea of what you will want to do. In fact, I’ll go further and say the ideal situation would be that you will not be able to stop yourself pursuing your passions. By this time you should know what your obsessions are. If you enjoy showing off your knowledge and feeling superior, you might become a teacher.

Find that pursuit that will energise you, consume you, become an obsession. Each day, you must rise with a restless enthusiasm. If you don’t, you are working.

Most of you will end up in activities which involve communication. To those of you I have a second message: be wary of the truth. I’m not asking you to speak it, or write it, for there are times when it is dangerous or impossible to do those things. The truth has a great capacity to offend and injure, and you will find that the closer you are to someone, the more care you must take to disguise or even conceal the truth. Often, there is great virtue in being evasive, or equivocating. There is also great skill. Any child can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences. It takes great maturity to appreciate the value of silence.

In order to be wary of the truth, you must first know it. That requires great frankness to yourself. Never fool the person in the mirror.

I have told you that your life is over, that you should not work, and that you should avoid telling the truth. I now say this to you: be hated.

It’s not as easy as it sounds. Do you know anyone who hates you? Yet every great figure who has contributed to the human race has been hated, not just by one person, but often by a great many. That hatred is so strong it has caused those great figures to be shunned, abused, murdered and in one famous instance, nailed to a cross.

One does not have to be evil to be hated. In fact, it’s often the case that one is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one’s own convictions. It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to be accommodating and hold no strong convictions. Then one will gravitate towards the centre and settle into the average. That cannot be your role. There are a great many bad people in the world, and if you are not offending them, you must be bad yourself. Popularity is a sure sign that you are doing something wrong.

The other side of the coin is this: fall in love.

I didn’t say “be loved”. That requires too much compromise. If one changes one’s looks, personality and values, one can be loved by anyone.

Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It may seem odd for me to tell you this. You may expect it to happen naturally, without deliberation. That is false. Modern society is anti-love. We’ve taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work – the only kind of work that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration, learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word, we call happiness. In loving someone, we become inspired to better ourselves in every way. We learn the truth worthlessness of material things. We celebrate being human. Loving is good for the soul.

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn’t happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.

You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone. You either don’t, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

Don’t work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

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Yes, it is long. Very long in fact.

If there's anything i took away from CS100, is that, language helps us to organise our experiences/thoughts, and allow us to communicate to others.

You have to admit that his speech is very.. different. Not those trying too hard to be different, but mean every single word he enunciated. Not mentioning that his flow is impeccable and, without the use of bombastic words.

And now, I understand why people study all about communcation. The mountain they make out of a molehill takes up a very big part of our life.

-source: http://grandenough.blogspot.com/2010/04/dont-work-avoid-telling-truth-be-hated.html

2010-05-05T22:34:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, it's hard to see the lines we've drawn until we've crossed them. That's when we rely on the ones we love to pull us back and give us something to hold onto. Then there are the clearly marked lines. The ones that if you dare cross, you may never find your way back.

-xoxo Gossip Girl

2010-05-05T00:28:00.001+08:00

嘿，你会幸福的。

2010-05-04T00:33:00.003+08:00

Do you think anyone really knows who they are? No, we don't. We just live.
-Lily Bass

I think i should just create a twitter instead.

2010-05-02T23:18:00.002+08:00

I remember reading a person's blog and he was mentioning about his philosophy about life, "Be happy. As long as you are not hurting anyone while being happy, you're doing fine."

How true.

2010-04-27T20:00:00.002+08:00

Kelvin starts to believe that hard work don't usually get paid off.
But what else can he do?

Applaud

2010-04-21T23:47:00.001+08:00

I admire those people who study all about communication.

They really can make a mountain out of a molehill.

2010-04-19T00:47:00.002+08:00

S.H.E. best song so far.

Alright, maybe not but you get my point hor.

I'm hooked to this song since i heard it on the commercial of 想握你的手, and this have been accompanying with throughout my journey with business law.

And i'm abondoning law for accounting tomorrow, should this song go with law too?

Ignore me, i've gotta go mitigate my loss.

2010-04-16T23:20:00.002+08:00

I always can't help but to be amused by siew lin's mum idea of asking her to look out for potential boyfriends at the bus stop, but i actually kind of believe it now.

How ironic.

Alright, exam time. Fight that bitch.

2010-04-15T18:50:00.002+08:00

难得.

Somebody said that my conversation with the bithces was profound.

2010-04-10T00:40:00.000+08:00

If there's anything i wanna do now, it is nothing.

2010-03-28T01:07:00.002+08:00

I was kind of afraid to return home just now, back to the pile of books and what-nots.

I was wondering whether am i worrying over the future a bit too early?

Since young, i was so accustomed to think that i am a capable person, or at least i would be one, only to find out that i did not grow up exactly according to plan.

I can't help but to think how useful is my education now and what i am going to get at the end of it.

How am i going to compete with the rest of the world?

Or rather, should i be competing with them or be satisfied with an any-how job.

Ya i know, it boils down to what i want in life and hmmm.. what am i looking for huh?

I think i need counseling.

2010-03-17T11:31:00.001+08:00

Can somebody please save me from this misery.

2010-03-06T00:09:00.001+08:00

All of the sudden, nothing matters.

Poker Face

2010-02-04T21:24:00.001+08:00

.. chinese new year version.

Love Life

2010-02-01T23:20:00.004+08:00

Busy recently? Not quite.

Besides keeping up with the exercise regime i implemented for myself to stay as healthy as possible, i have been studying, quite hard.

As much as i love to say i was a hardworking student all the while, i am definately not, especially when i dug up my law tutorials during my poly times and i realised i have actually never completed any of them.

None. And i really mean it.

So, to make up for my ~~stupidity~~ lack of brain power, i obediently did all my tutorials (so far) and when i actually do up my tutorials, i have a lot of questions in mind.

As usual, law is very debatable, and it is in my nature to prove myself right.

So this was how it went in the classroom.

Me: So, can you give us an example of the kind of implied authority that a secretary might have?

Tutor: Why don't you give me some?

-pause for 3 seconds-

Me: Well, if i could think of any, i wouldn't be asking you(?).

Knowing that it is totally tactless and it may even sound offensive to some, i quickly covered my ass and be as tactful as possible.

Me: Hmm, i can't think of any example that a secretary can do for the boss that involves money. (trying to act cute)

Fortunately, she agreed with me, because there's actually no way that a secretary can have an implied authority to enter into a contract for the boss.

Phew.

My participation marks were at stake, alright. An effing 20%!
And you have to applaud for me for being so tactful, for once in my life.

Alright, at least applaud for me because i don't pose questions for the sake of participation. *roll eyes*

Come to think of it, i LOVE law.

And if i were brought up in an english-speaking environment, maybe in some SJI or ACSI with an impeccable command of English, i most probably would be studying law right now.

Well, this is life. It is full of regrets.

Anyway, my main aim of this entry is not to update you the mundanities of my everyday life.

I'm here to share this quote by God knows who, If only we'd stop trying to be happy we could have a pretty good time (i don't know how is this related to what i am going to write, but ya, you get my drift, don't you?).

This came as i was watching the repeat telecast of 焦点 in the afternoon to find out why Obama's popularity is sliding, but it was the report of the situation at Haiti after that, that shocked me and reminded me how fragile life can be.

Usually, i tend to get emotional after watching sad stories of people and get on with my normal life hours later.

But the situation at Haiti, this time, got me thinking, am i taking life for granted.

They (the volunteers who went and came back) described the situation there as the worst they have ever encountered.

I thought it was some gimmick to make the public pity them more so that they can raised more fund. You know how cynical i can get.

But they went on explaining that it is the lack of leadership and governance that caused the chaos, leading to proper medical care and food supplies not reaching those who needed them most, leaving children and women who are obviously the weakest to die.

Plus, the US halted their airlift (which has now finally been resumed) because of the dispute over medical care costs and the helplessness and worry of insufficient tents to shelter the wounded from the incoming rain made me wonder, where did they find strength to live on?

I mean, look, we are priviledged people who live in a city where there is no natural disaster, and yet we are contemplating migration and worst, thinking of suicide over small problems (as compared to the massive earthquake).

Sometimes i wonder, did education set out in the right way it was planned to?

Education made us smarter, greedier and more vulunerable. But without it, we may end up foolishly irrational.

类似爱情

2010-01-24T23:47:00.002+08:00

我站在屋顶黄昏的光影
我听见爱情光临的声音

微妙的反应忽然想起你
这默契感觉像是一个谜

心里有点急也有点生气
你不要放弃行不行

我在过马路你人在哪里
这条路希望跟你走下去

最近我和你都有一样的心情
那是一种类似爱情的东西
在同一天发现爱在接近
那是爱并不是也许

可不要忘记你要相信你自己
给我一些类似爱情的回应
这个世界很无情谢谢你
说一声爱你我很想听

我们两个人陌生又熟悉
爱似乎来的很小心翼翼

我想问问你是不是相信
爱来了这种滋味很美丽
这条路应该如何走下去

... yet another song top on my playlist.

2010-01-06T23:18:00.002+08:00

... and those who loved him. The priest spoke about the nature of tragedy. How it causes people to think and ask, what if. What if he hadn't died. What if i had chosen differently. What if i had made that mistake. And the priest said, the best way to honour those who had died, is to focus on what was, and to keep on living the best way we know how.

Thirsty for liqour

2009-12-31T00:47:00.007+08:00

Why do i like gossip girl so much?

Apart from the fact that i like/love/envy/want the life of the rich and glamourous, i love my life, myself, my family, people around me and almost everything else.

I mean, i have been such a good boy, i don't fight in school, don't pop pills, have never been to rehab, and well, my life has been wonderful.

Which makes me wonder, do i create the dramas in my life because it's just too ordinary. And i started thinking of something rather.. sophisicated, what is my life all about.

Sounds totally high school right.

I still remember few days back i was having this conversation with jo, that is if jo and i have anything in common besides our bitchness, it is that we have no idea what we areliving for.

Or should we be living for anything besides ourselves in the first place, but why do we have to live for ourselves.

It is like, our parents studied (well, actually mine didn't but that's not the point), fell in love, went out to work, gave birth to us, raised us up and expect us to go through the same process like they did, and for what?

Which got me thinking of the next question, what is love?

From gossip girl, which is one of the few shows that i have watched that has characters that are so colourful and distinct, i have seen that, to many, love is about having found love, but to some, love is all about finding love.

As complicated as it sounded, i actually have no idea what i am talking about.

And one of the characters i really like, is Lily.

She is beautiful, poised, elegant and everything wonderful. She is a mother of two, or maybe three, who dated so many boyfriends, got married with so many husbands, only to realise that, a part of her never gave up on the idea that she would get together with her forbidden (ex) boyfriend eventually. And in my mind, i thought, what if years later, i realised that i actually still do miss you.

Well, at least for now, i don't wish to make you the reason for me to breathe.

Powerhouse tonight, anyone?

2009-12-30T00:40:00.002+08:00

It has been like TEN years since everyone around me got so uptight about results.

And all of the sudden, i have found back my drive to learn.

the same thing

2009-12-27T01:35:00.002+08:00

Can't sleep.

And as usual, i come up here to blog.
Only to realise that i have nothing to blog about except my insomnia.

And i go off and try to sleep again.

2009-12-25T17:46:00.002+08:00

Ohhh, the first day of christmas is about to end and i'm still feeling so lazy.

I gotta get out of the house before i die of loneliness.

ciao.

2009-12-24T23:07:00.004+08:00

Alright. Alright.

I'm a naughty boy when i stayed out to the wee hours, but i'm an introvert when i stay home on christmas's eve.

But lucky me, i have my newfound love, gossip girl to keep my company.

Which make my, by far, the most depressingly boring holiday, slightly more interesting.

I have finished 宮心計, which i felt that is at most on par with the previous mega hong kong drama productions, flash forward chose to go for a hiatus until march, and latest season of desperate housewives is currently airing an episode each week in the US.

So, i have no other choice but to turn to gossip girl.

When yew teck first introduced to me this american series last year, I had doubts on how good can this show be because i thought it would be too much like mean girls, the movie.

With a queen bee and her followers, bullying the newbies in college, engaging in those bimbotic conversations, and the queen got dethroned and everyone watched how she fall from grace.

Ok, i gotta admit, these were part of the show, but i promised, only a small part.

But what i liked best is that the show is not those typical the-rich-are-bad-and-the-poor-are-good kind of show.

And the rich are not partying hard to numb themselves and there they would go, introducing some cliche moral thingy like how much they wish that they are not born rich, how they want their marriage to be not business-related or trying very hard to prove that they do not need the silver spoon.

So, this show is a must-watch, at least for season 1.

Oh ya, my favourite character is Chuck. Ironically, i totally hated him at the beginning, but as the character developed, he is so much in between good and bad, right and wrong, and it's him being so jaded that made me sympathise with him.

Catch it! and tell me who's your favourite.

you know you love me. xoxo.

2009-12-24T16:55:00.002+08:00

It’s often said that no matter the truth, people will see what they want to see.

Some people might take a step back and find out they were looking at the same big picture all along. Some people might see that their lies have almost caught up to them. Some people may see what was there all along.

And then there are those other people, the ones that run as far away as they can so they don’t have to look at themselves.

-Gossip Girl

2009-12-24T01:26:00.002+08:00

Let me say, for the record, i like you.

Only you.

Alice in Wonderland

2009-12-20T01:09:00.006+08:00

I have never been a fan of Alice in Wonderland, but i don't remember it being so creepy.

Watch this.

SALES!

2009-12-16T23:23:00.002+08:00

Oh my God!!! Somebody has to go with me!

Fred Perry Polo Tees at $69 only!

Good Night!

2009-12-16T22:47:00.003+08:00

10.56p.m now.

I am going to sleep.

2009-12-12T22:28:00.002+08:00

So the pipe in my toilet is dripping and I am of not much help because i'm in accountancy and not in some civil engineering.

I mean, as if you know how to fix the pipe.

And as if my mood isn't bad enough when there absolutely nothing to do on this boring saturday evening.

Should have just asked jo out to club instead.

Oh well, so be it, i shall do my eye mask and watch some old episodes of 康熙来了.
Peiling just gave me a lot of new samples yesterday!

What happened to me?

2009-12-10T20:52:00.003+08:00

I saw this photo and already felt like puking.

And i still can't figure out why i drink so much.

2009-12-08T12:42:00.003+08:00

I saw this photo and I so wanna get married!

Kop from: Moomedia http://www.facebook.com/Moomedia#/photo.php?pid=1906214&id=35431161389

2009-12-07T09:53:00.004+08:00

OH MY GAWD!

My heart has not pumped so hard and fast for like a long long time!
Not even for the most difficult exam.

*pause and swallow*

Cheyne and Meghan WON the race!

I know, i know, you don't know who they are, right.

Why can't Asian have such skin?

And they are only 23, for gawd damn sake!
And why can't I have such skin.

Back to The Amazing Race.

I love this team because they are so loving, so supportive of each other, and when at face with problems, they were so calm and solved the roadblock together.

Alright, to be honest, i haven't been watching The Amazing Race for the longest time, for whatever reason, and i only started re-watching since 2 days ago because Channel 5 was having a The Amazing Race Marathon, where they broadcast the repeat telecast from episode one.

And I camped at my (sis) bed for the whole 2 afternoons.
Totally potato couch, i know. But i can't help it.

And I crawled out of my bed 9am this morning, just to watch the season finale.

9 am! I have not woken up so early since my last exam.

But for Cheyne and Meghan, it's all worth it.

While watching, I couldn't even sit still and got myself jumping up and down when they fell behind as they went to the wrong hotel.

But as calm and composed as they were, they quickly counted the gambling chips, went back to first place and eventually won the amazing race.

I don't know how true this reality show is, or whether all the bitching and backstabbing were skillfully crafted by the producers, but yes, they have got me all excited over this team.

I love Cheyne and Meghan.

And no, the picture did not do them justice. They were much better looking on screen.

Song of the Year

2009-12-06T00:28:00.002+08:00

.. definately would be 最幸褔的事

Let the bitching begin

2009-12-01T01:31:00.002+08:00

Just when I thought 宮心計 was not good enough as the twists were not impressive and not well elaborated on, I rewatched the trailer (which was the reason I've been anticipating this show since February) and wonder why is it so different from the episodes i have watched so far.

But I still don't see any resemblance of 大長今. Maybe except the part that it all about the bitching in the palace.

2009-11-30T15:29:00.010+08:00

I worked very hard for my exams, and now, i am working harder to catch up with my long-time-no-see friends.

At least it is more worthwhile planning, contacting, coordinating and implementing this outing, than studies.

Come to think of it, I was pretty sian diao about this outing, simply because many who did not turn up gave lame excuses like no money, gotta accompany girlfriend, having some family dinner blah blah blah.

I mean, what?!, our friendship doesn't deserve your time or doesn't even worth twenty bucks? You get food for that, der!

Well, i can only say that, it's karmic.

So let me start the camwhoring session with me, and my food. (Actually i was the ONLY one who wanted to take photo with the food and the rest, can't be bothered with it.)

After dinnering at the Japanese Marche, which is called Shokudo (I guess?), we moved off to TCC for some coffee.

And lesson (not) learnt, never have chill-out session at TCC anymore because the drinks just suck, big-time!

So, below is ah phua, whom i always yawned to each time he speaks and i just hate him *roll eyes*. Don't you just feel like slapping his face!

And this is Yew Teck, whose hair, i still couldn't figure out what happened.

And the next is Ang, who doesn't look like/age like our age, and if you have any interest in his Herbal Life products, he would definately give you a thumb-up.

Oh ya, but i have to say this, as much as i am against MLM products, Herbal Life is good. (I'm gaining no commission for saying this, unless Ang would so generously give me a treat for that.)

And this is Zifu, who took so many pictures until he is satisfied with this (he proclaimed is) cool photo.

And this is my ex-best friend i have made in my 2 years in Army, Wen Long! And we always bicker over small things like me having my new NTU best friends and abandoning him and he insisting he's the cutest boy on earth.

Grow up, boy!

And this is SK, who have a gift in music and Becky said he looks like 阿丹.

阿what?

And finally it's me, who believes that he has more pontential in looks than in books.

Don't you agree?

After engaging in an hour of non-meaningful conversations, we dismissed because i have gotta rush to meet my Singapore-Poly best friends to go into JB for some cheap petrol, carwash and supper.

But before that, i managed to take a photo with this gigantic christmas tree at Suntec, while Ang and ah Phua were having their usual take-5 session.

And this is what will happen to the photos when they have a cigaratte in their hands.

And now you know why i dislike smokers; they shiver.

Went to into JB and we stayed low profile/forgot to/too tired to take photos and I ended up have these few...

And i shall end this post with this aunty doing her math of roti plus kaya.

2009-11-30T00:21:00.005+08:00

So i have been playing catch up these few days, after so much time was spent on tutorials, projects, assignments and examinations for the past semester.

As expected, everyone else was busy with their exams because i had four straight papers and ended early, as if i have a choice. So i guess i'm stuck with my NTU best friends, and we embarked on our first-time-out.

I was on the train and i was pretty sure that i saw my bff's ex-boyfriend, and i so-wanted to tell him what i have rehearsed in my mind for a long time, to thank him for being so gracious and noble, especially when i have extra dosage of desperate housewives for the past few days.

But I didn't 'cause i'm timid, cannot huh.

And i thought to myself, maybe i shouldn't be so critical about Kingsley afterall, and this is (even more) so after watching 2012; he flies a plane, you see.

I digressed, yet again.

And now, let me introduce my NTU best friends.
Yay, Shawn and SK being really childish, jumped on their ultra-megapixels camera handphones when i kindly volunteer to take a photo of them.

You must be thinking that their phones are PSP in disguise, is it?

Nope, they were just taking photos/videos of me to tag me on facebook or something *roll eyes*.

And here comes the food...

Actually, we queued up for the food lah.

And more camwhoring...

And i have to introduce my best-est NTU friend to you! VICTOR!

Ok, his name is NOT Victor, but Shengli, who often offer me a ride to the interchange after school and thought that i am too judging when i said that i knew from the first day that we would be good friends.

Like what Becky asked, why my friends all this kind of pattern one.

I mean, look at him, he's so good to bully and that's my first criterion when i look for good friends.

And you can see how much Shawn LOVES his (new) phone..

Come to think of it, as much as i dislike marketing, i have to thank the numerous presentations this module required that allow me to make such good friends, although there are times when we are on totally different frequencies haha!

2009-11-29T04:18:00.000+08:00

Yes, it is painful to realise that, we have no intention of stopping.

2009-11-25T16:54:00.004+08:00

It is in our nature to judge the people around us.

If they ignore our wishes, we believe they are disrespectful. If they don't watch their children, we conclude that they are unfit parents. If we catch them cheating, we assume we know their reasons.

But what happen when we suddenly stop for a moment and judge our own lives, it can be painful to step back and see what we've been doing, and even more painful to realise, we have no intention of stopping.

You must haven't been looking

2009-11-24T20:59:00.005+08:00

It is a story that a boy meets girl.
But it's not a love story.

No wonder Gladys couldn't understand.

The movie wasn't anything surprising, but i love the way the story was presented, back and forth and back and forth.

The girl.
I like being on my own. Relationships are messy, people's feelings get hurt, who needs it? Might as well have fun when we can.
There's no such thing as love, that's fantasy.

The boy.
What happens when we fall in love. It's love, it's not santa claus.
You know when you feel it.

The girl got together with the boy, or did they? and the girl left the boy because she can't imagine being anyone's.

But she got married, so abruptly.

And the movie came to a conclusion out of nowhere, that coincidence, that's all everything ever is. Nothing more, than coincidence. There's no such thing as fate, nothing is meant to be.

Still, I couldn't find the meaning Becky mentioned, is there any?

It's just a story, that a boy meets girl.

my exams are OVER!

2009-11-24T18:13:00.002+08:00

And my ~~well-deserved~~ long-awaited holidays are finally here.

Actually, i don't know is it the disappointment with my performance or just some withdrawal syndrome, as if like i have just been pulled down back to earth, i am not THAT excited over the holidays.

But one thing i know, i have lost my drive in learning and i gotta find it back quick. Real quick.

And before that, i have to, so gonna have fun!

Tuesday is THE DAY!

2009-11-22T23:01:00.002+08:00

Now that so many people love me, i need to love myself more.

So, this coming week i am going to...
Watch 2012 with Shengli and gang, have Kushinbo with my NTU best friends (which is still Shengli and gang), have a good dinner with Angel and Peihuan, go for some drinks with Jo and company, meet some army friends for dinner, catch up with 宮心計 and indulge in myself!

Oh ya, i need a job too. Any offer?

Some people.. just need it

2009-11-21T00:46:00.002+08:00

I am still able to remember vividly, the way Mrs Janet Fok shoke her head and threw back her signature condescending look when some ex-students from SP, who came back to give some industry talk, asked her if she still believe that a diploma is not enough.

And back then, in my heart, i thought that she's totally wrong.

And now, i can't believe that i was so naive.

Wish me luck!

2009-11-18T22:40:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow's my first paper since a long long time!

Hooray!!

And i have no idea why am i still feeling so lost about organisation behavior at this hour.

Many more lost days to come!

Exam, so what?!

2009-11-17T23:24:00.002+08:00

I didn't feel a tinge of stress, until i matched my answers with the examiners' report.

2009-11-13T01:20:00.003+08:00

Exam's such a bitch. I can't do whatever i like.
And this computer is such a great temptation and i can't finish studying because of it!

I'm so scared i will become the sucessor of Tan Siew Lin, haha!

Nooooooooooooo....

Friend, i miss you

2009-11-05T00:58:00.003+08:00

I have decided to get really emo today.

I was on the cab, a long ride from the airport and i was suddenly very thankful for all the friends i have.

I mean, there are a lot of people whom you can connect with in this world, but some, you just met them at the wrong place, wrong time, wrong context.

And that is why some friends just fade away, if you can call them your friends in the first place.

Damn unproductive!

2009-11-01T00:41:00.002+08:00

I wanna sing k.
I wanna drink.
I wanna watch all my favourite dramas.
I wanna indulge in me!!

One more month!

2009-10-28T23:19:00.002+08:00

I know why am i struggling so badly, because i'm too afraid that my results does not justify my sacrifices.

So now, i have got a lot to catch up.

And jo said she will open a bottle if i get 2 As, and we will drink until we puke and sit on our puke!

Random Thought

2009-10-27T19:45:00.002+08:00

I saw the 'smoking harms' commercial and I wish that ah phua can stop smoking, one day.

該往那裡走

2009-10-14T22:29:00.002+08:00

又有誰可以說走了自己要走的路, 而不是因該走的路?

沒有如果

2009-10-12T00:30:00.004+08:00

Oh my god! I'm addicted to 敗犬女王 again!
But I gotta study!

Dammit.
I feel like dying now, 你到底懂不懂.

Helipad and Johnnie

2009-10-11T22:17:00.007+08:00

My new found hobby: Drinking.

Oh well, that's the only thing that can keep me sane now.

No, we didn't club this time but went to some atas place on top of central.
It's called Helipad and ironically, we didn't go up to the open-air area.

And their door bitch, is really a bitch.

Our virgin bottle in Singapore!

Chuanzhi and his constipated face. Whole night can!

With this, i promised myself, i will wake up, work hard and play even harder!
At least for the next 7 weeks!

今天為他而醉

2009-10-10T05:00:00.001+08:00

以後為自己醉

Here we go again!

2009-09-29T01:19:00.006+08:00

10 years since i last clubbed.

I was barred from powerhouse, because of my stupid berms. Atas place. uh.

No matter what, nothing is gonna dampen the fun, although we were so nostalgic after that.

I don't know how did the picture end up like this, but kinda artistic, don't you agree?

And we got ourselves ~~drunk~~ high before we step onto the dance floor and went crazy!

Happy memories, and i'm glad i have such good friends!

2009-09-28T19:03:00.002+08:00

My dad received a call from Hong Kong, congratulating him that he has won some 70 thousand hong kong dollars.

And yes, the uneducated him actually naively trusted the woman on the other end of the phone, and pestered my mum and me to believe in him, and obviously, his luck.

My dad hasn't been on his luck, since like 15 years back when my grandmother passed on and miraculously gave him some 4-D number.

I took over the phone when she called back the second time today.

She sounded really sincere, or maybe she is.

But i can't see what constructive and valuable comments my dad could have gave to this oil trading company, which is opening their branches in Singapore during december, and so happened to pick my dad as a lucky winner on their 10-year anniversary function, and suddenly there's a law that states that one has to place a deposit of 30% of the transfer. And that comes up to almost 4k sing.

You can't blame me for being cynical, right?

2009-09-27T21:26:00.003+08:00

My new best friends in NTU.

2009-09-25T21:42:00.001+08:00

I feel cheated.

No one told me growing up is so hard.
And no one warned me university can be so tough.

2009-09-21T23:48:00.002+08:00

愛是一種需要一種缺乏

所以我們都喜歡情歌

不管愛在進行中還是仍未萌芽

不管你愛他比較多還是他愛你比較多

愛或被愛其實都是一種喜悅

2009-09-15T00:07:00.001+08:00

Monsters are real. Ghosts are real too. They live inside us.
And sometimes, they win.

2009-09-09T00:52:00.000+08:00

Is there a checklist for love?

My life is perfect, even when it is not

2009-09-04T09:59:00.005+08:00

it's a beautiful world
it's a beautiful world
it's a beautiful world
and i love the world

even though sometimes
i will feel so lonely
even though sometimes
i will want to cry
even though sometimes
i will feel so sad
but that is life
that is life

This song is written by 小S, can you believe it or not.

I know why people commit suicide in university

2009-08-30T02:13:00.003+08:00

University is killing me, or am i worrying too much.
I don't know should i continue to whine, or do something about it.

Anyway, i can't wait for breakfast tomorrow!

I want to...

2009-08-28T20:08:00.000+08:00

... FALL IN LOVE!

... BE HANDSOME!

Quit you

2009-08-25T20:30:00.001+08:00

These few day, i have been waking up very happily, going school very happily, because i know when i come back, i get to watch 命中注定我愛你!

Haha!

School has never been better!

九十九次我愛你!

2009-08-23T14:50:00.002+08:00

All thanks to Wendy, i'm now hooked on to 命中注定我愛你!

This show is definately making me feel so deprived of love, so pathetic... zz....

And i keep asking my mum, 為什麼把我生成這個樣子, why can't I be as cute as 阮經天 or at least half as cute lah, and why all the things that happened in the show didn't and won't happen to me!

Awwwwwww.... The show is so so SO sad yet so so SO sweeeeeet!

GOSH!

But i just have to get back to the boring Statistics, Economics and don't forget about MARKETING!

Stupid!!!

該往哪走我卻只想回頭

2009-08-10T22:50:00.005+08:00

我真的那麼捉摸不定嗎?
現在,我知道我真的很愛你,因為我很久沒有心痛到流淚了:)

I start to wonder, is life playing a trick on me?

I told myself to not love you, i ended up having dinner with you.

I told myself to forget you when school start, and i ended up returning your call on the second day of school.

I told myself to make you disappear from my life, i deleted your photos, number, but i cant delete away the memories. And when you suddenly for once talked to me on msn, i ended up not replying, yet missing you even more.

What the hell.

及早認清目標

2009-08-08T00:38:00.000+08:00

梁詠琪說: "只要大家在考試時盡了力，分數已不再重要，一定要放鬆心情面對成功或失敗，假若成績不太好的話，只要你捉緊目標，早一點出來社會工作，也不是一個大問題，如果能認清自己的目標方向，便要即時投考一些專業學院繼續進修.

明白.

++De|ic!ous HoR fUn++

沒差?

型男醉後日記

有人說..

Once upon a time

以後為自己醉

alcohol

真的.. 沒那麼簡單

我的天啊！出嫁了！

What?

梁靜茹【比較愛】

all time favourite

I have to share with you this...

Applaud

Poker Face

Love Life

类似爱情

Thirsty for liqour

the same thing

Alice in Wonderland

SALES!

Good Night!

What happened to me?

Song of the Year

Let the bitching begin

You must haven't been looking

my exams are OVER!

Tuesday is THE DAY!

Some people.. just need it

Wish me luck!

Exam, so what?!

Friend, i miss you

Damn unproductive!

Random Thought

該往那裡走

沒有如果

Helipad and Johnnie

今天為他而醉

Here we go again!

My life is perfect, even when it is not

I know why people commit suicide in university

I want to...

Quit you

九十九次我愛你!

該往哪走 我卻只想回頭

及早認清目標

該往哪走我卻只想回頭